So, I sit here in my bed, tears running down my face, sniffling from just having had a good cry. I’m getting to the beginning of the end of this cycle and I had my water sonogram, in which my doctor saw I had a small polyp and I just filled the prescription I needed for the procedure to remove it.
I gotta tell you, I’m terrified of this medication. It is called Misoprostol and I am supposed to take three pills, vaginally at 6pm the night before my procedure. I asked in the office if it was going to be like labor pain, and they said ‘oh no, just cramping’. Well, guess what? I know labor is just severe cramping…been there done that doc, but thanks for telling me yet another lie. So I mention to the pharmacist my fears and she says it does cause severe cramping, bleeding, etc. Okay, not really helping, but a little more honest. She also said the drug is commonly used for abortion and I thought it was odd.
I called my doctor to ask if it was correct and why they are using that. They told me it was correct and that it is used for a number of reasons. She also told me some people experience pain and others aren’t bothered by it. So, I took to the internet, like any normal Gen-X-er and read more and more stories about how absolutely horrifying this medication is. How many women passed out from pain, called 911, went to the ER for fever, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, and were doubled over in so much pain they cried out screaming. THIS. DOES. NOT. MAKE. ME. FEEL. ANY. BETTER. In fact, I found myself sobbing incoherently to my husband because I am so scared.
First of all, I’ve gone into natural labor before, I know it sucks, I know it is massive amounts of pain. I also know I begged/screamed for an epidural before I was even that far into labor. You can’t fool me. Been there, done that. I know cramping and my body, don’t mix. I suffer from IBS anyways, and I know anything else triggering an IBS issue will not be good for me.
Second of all, they list on the prep sheet, to alternate between Tylenol and Motrin until midnight. All that I read said the pain progressively got worse through the night, then what? I can’t take any more pain management meds because of my surgery. I asked the nurse and she said I could take a pill with a sip of water. Okay, I feel a little better…but only because I’ve been given a possible solution. I’m still over here freaking out about how much pain I will be doubled over in throughout the night.
I realize reading the internet can be a cardinal sin and get me into loads of mental turmoil, but really, wouldn’t you rather know worst case scenarios before they happen, not while they happen and you are freaking out something is terribly wrong? I know what has happened in the past too, the nurses are not straight with me and tell me things are going to be ‘not painful’, maybe some ‘discomfort’ but not ‘painful’. And I will be the first to say they lied. I don’t like that. I don’t like that at all. It’s hard to find trust in doctors and nurses who won’t be straight with you. Although, on the flip side, to be fair, the Web MD blurp about that medication said the exact same thing as the nurses. However, real peoples accounts matter when it comes to things of this nature and they aren’t to be discounted.
I think I will take a Xanax tonight, to relieve some of this anxiety. Maybe help me calm down a bit, at least I got some tears out.